Future

Everyday, even if just for a while, I spend some time thinking about me, my plans, my fears, my future. Everytime I add something new or review my ideas.

I think about my family, my friends, my new future home. Some days I am more inspired and I go further. I think about the children I want to have, if I want to have mine or adopt, if I want to live in the countryside or in the city, or in a countryside house in the city. Maybe I’ll be a diplomatic, but if I could be a ballerina? That would be fantastic, I would have no words to express the feeling of being able to work as a ballet dancer.

My mom believes in destiny and sometimes she says to me to not worry so much about it, but, in reality, I don’t believe in destiny. I believe that we are what we make, what we pursue, what we create. We are our opportunities. That’s one of the reasons I work so hard to get where I want to. I stretch almost every day, I do my research, I watch ballet videos, try to improve my technique, I listen to my teachers. Because the thing I want most now is to work as a ballerina in a company (big or not, it doens’t matter to me), even knowing that my technique may be not enough due the time I lost (6 years) in my first school that taught me nothing (literally).

In the other hand, travelling around the world to help with political problems, study about environment, health, education is also something I would die for to do. That’s also why I study french, german and english, little things that will help me in the future, with me working with diplomacy or not (besides that, I love to know languages).

Future isn’t something we can control, but isn’t something we can’t change at all. It is in our hands.

Now, back to the attitude.

With love,

Arissa Ayumi